it's beginning to look a lot like christmas!

hello lovelies! hope you all had a great thanksgiving! we had a great time up in st. louis with my side of the fam. bennet loved playing with all her cousin's cool toys! especially their play kitchen, which i believe she is asking santa for this year. she has been such a little sweet heart so i am sure she will have something extra special waiting for her under the tree. ;) speaking of santa...we went to see him today! bennet warmed up quick to him. she just sat there jibber jabbering to him. it was so cute. santa went on and on about how she reminds him of his little girl (santa and mrs. claus have babies ya'll) you could tell santa was very content to hold her and secretly didn't want her to go. i think the feeling was mutual ;)

oh and here is a flash back of last year....

same santa, same girl...even though she looks so different! it really is crazy to see how much she has changed. still the sweetest little thing though :)

my little family

i love my husband. i love my baby girl. i love our kitty.

i am so in love with my little family.

they mean everything to me. i am so thankful that God has blessed me with such a fun bunch.

but...

i wish my husband was home. the days we have to spend with each other are few and go by too quick. some days are so hard to get through. and most days don't go by fast enough. i could write on and on about how hard dealing with my husband's job is. how hard it is to see your little girl cry and knock on the front door after dada leaves...again.
this tour is almost over and then we will have some time in december to all be together. and then it starts all over again in january. he will be gone 4-5 days a week till april. yep.

today i was daydreaming about what it would be like to have him home on the weekends. what would that look like? would we snuggle in bed and watch cartoons with bennet? would be get up and make the most of our day? head to the farmers market? do brunch? go on random road trips? stay in pjs all day?

there are a few things i want to say...
-obviously it is hard. days are long.
-if he is gonna have to travel for a job, it is pretty cool that he gets to do something he loves.
-i am thankful he has a job.
-there are perks.
-there are downers.


all this to say, i just am missing him...so is bennet.

this is my baby

{photo by ethan luck}


i am one blessed mommy

lately...

{at the park}

{got her hair did ha}

i feel like bennet has been such a sponge the past couple months. she tries really hard to say words and mimics everything!
bennet's favorite words are:
cheese
turkey
cracker
kitty cat
bye
dada
mama

{slides!!}


she is constantly using her baby signs...more, eat, drink, thank you. those are just the main ones i taught her. she knows lots of words and knows what i mean when i say "are you ready for night night?" she crawls to her room. same with bath time. it is crazy how much she knows. i will ask something and she will totally know it. it def surprises me sometimes.

she knows some animals sounds too. right now her favorites are lions, bears, and snakes. she knows monkeys scratch their armpits haha. i would say reading books with animals is her favorite thing to do. she loves the flap books and constantly wants to read and lift the flap up.

{eating jeni's ice cream}

{at the pumpkinfest with her buddy addison}

she still won't walk by herself, but i think she is getting close. we will see.

did i mention she is gonna be a kitty cat for halloween?! isn't she the cutest!!

random memories...

~i stopped nursing bennet completely while in st louis on oct 4. i was just feeding her in the morning but i could see she wasn't really caring about it. so i just stopped. she hasn't seemed to miss it. as much as i was longing for this day, i was super sad the next couple days...she is such a big girl now.

~bennet knows what a lion says. anytime you ask her she growls the cutest growl. she has also mooed when asked what a cow says but prefers to growl. she pretty much thinks every animal growls since learning about lions. i took her to the zoo while in st louis and when we saw the lions she just sat there forever growling at them. ha

~bennet has such a personality and likes to have all the attention. she still has no stranger danger and says HI! to everyone she sees.

~you went to your 3rd sanctus real show and saw dada play. while watching him you kept saying dada! dada! and clapping. you dance so much to music it is hilarious.

~you have 6 teeth right now and some more trying to get through. you are officially the slowest at getting teeth. sorry baby.

~you think its awesome to pull petty's hair out by the handfuls. he still hasn't scratched you. seriously the sweetest cat. and he adores you.

~you refuse to keep socks and shoes on. i am on the hunt to find one that you can't take off. so frustrating as it is colder out and you NEED something on your feet.

~after seeing your daddy for the 1st time after being away from him for that horrible 24 days, you lite up. i will never forget your smiling face and how excited you were for him. he won't either...you made his day. :)

(us last night at daddy's show)

Happy Birthday dada!

today is pete's birthday! we sent him this little video today to wish him a happy one!

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we are hanging in there! and only have 6 more days to get through till we are all together again! it has been hard...very hard. but i am thankful pete has had some fun (including meeting/hanging out with DJ Tanner!!?!) and bennet & i have been hanging with family in st louis. it has helped the time go by faster but still...24 days SUCKS!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PETE! your girls love you and can't wait to give you lots of hugs and kisses!

~m

weekend update

i didn't mention last week that pete left for the road on thursday. it will be a whole 24 days till we see him again. you guys, that is long. a very long time. this will be the longest we have been apart since before we were married. and now you add a baby to this and it just makes it so much harder.
i feel sad for him. i know he misses me so much but i can't imagine the level he must feel by missing bennet. it already has been hard on him and its only been a couple days.

i am going to try really hard to not feel sorry for myself. yes being alone with bennet caring for her for 24/7 for 24 days is going to be hard and tiring. i love being her momma and doing all the things that goes along with that but then you add in the errands, the laundry, the cleaning, taking out the trash...doing all that on top of momma duties is tough. yes i want pete here with me to help with all of this but more importantly i want him here for cuddles, dadda play time, eating dinner together, etc. all the special moments that are simple everyday life events. it is gonna be lonely. it is already lonely.

i deal all the time with jealousy that other people don't ever have to have their spouse away from them. it is hard to not feel all those emotions. i just hope and pray that i can put all that aside and focus on bennet. i hope i stay patient, have energy to keep up with her. and i hope i don't show her how lonely i am because i have her with me and she is the best company. as much as i can feel sorry for myself and take that out on pete, i have to remember how hard this is on him too. we both are not phone people and both get annoyed easily with it being our primary communication. have i mentioned this is gonna be hard.

please pray for us. i really hope it goes by fast.

oh also, bennet has a cold and is teething so already i feel worn out by the past few days. hopefully it passes soon. i feel so sorry for my stopped up little snotty nose baby. she is so sweet even when she is feeling down.

~m