a big update

wow! i am never on here anymore and that is just sad. i blame my battery on my computer though. it has to stay plugged in all the time so it makes being able to just sit and open while watching a toddler a little difficult. plus it stays in my bedroom and that is a room i barely go into during the day. enough about that. i have big news and although i know my only readers are my friends who follow me on instagram and facebook, so they already know my big announcement, i feel like i just need to make it sound like you haven't heard the news yet... I'M PREGNANT!!!! IT'S A BOY!!!!!!! HIS NAME IS LAWSON LEE PREVOST!!!!!

now that that is covered i feel like i need to share some details up until now... i found out on June 30. it was my second test and the first was negative but i really felt like i was so i just waited a few more days and sure enough! pete was gone so i called him with the news and he was floored. we were both so shocked and excited! we moved and i was pregnant. not the best time to move but i am so thankful for our new home. i never got sick like i did with bennet but omg the tiredness! i was beyond exhausted and took naps while b napped and just had barely any energy. i felt guilty and lazy so it was tough but i also reminded myself as did pete, that my body was growing a human. my house is coming along. there is still a lot to do but i don't feel rushed anymore. we still need to purchase some furniture and paint like every room but we will get there...someday ;) i wanted a boy so so so bad! when i was pregnant with bennet i thought for sure she was a boy. when they said "girl!" i was shocked. i was so excited but i also felt like i didn't know my body. it was a silly feeling and i blame the crazy hormones but still it kinda affected me with this pregnancy. i had a feeling it was a boy pretty much the whole time but would never say it. i didn't want to have that feeling again. and i was of course okay with whatever we would have but still this longing for a little baby boy was so deep. don't get me wrong, bennet is my dream. she is more then i could ever hope for. she is my life and my little love. but she is a total daddy's girl. like for real. i am not sad about it because she has a pretty great daddy and he isn't here a lot so i totally understand the infatuation with him. so all that said, i need a momma's boy. i already warned pete to stay away (just kidding of course). we found out it was a little man on October 9. we had the ultrasound, which is a couple buildings down from my midwife office, then went over to see the midwives. the lady who did the ultrasound wasn't too talkative and waited a while to finally tell us but when she first started i thought i saw a little dinkis. i didn't say anything cus once again i didn't want to be wrong. then she said the heartbeat was 147. bennet's was always like 155 or higher so that was another reason why i thought boy. bennet was waiting so patiently and kept looking at the screen saying "aww the baby" she says Lawson really well so we kept telling her they would let us know soon if it was a baby Lawson or a baby _______ (not telling our girls name cus we may want to use it in the future). she finally said "it's a boy! see it right here?" i just looked at pete in shock and started tearing up. that moment is so exciting! after we headed over to my midwife. pete and bennet stayed in the car and got coffee while i went in. she was so good but wasn't gonna make it through another doctor appt. the midwife informed me my placenta is down so we will have to watch that. i am praying it moves and i know this is very common. i want to have a vaginal birth again so bad so i just want everything to work out. she also informed me that there was a spot on the ultrasound with his heart. it is called something but i can't remember the name. basically its a sign of down syndrome or some other genetic problem. if i sound really calm it's bc i am. we are both really at peace with this. with bennet we were told the spacing of her toes were wrong and that she might have downs and we freaked out. we didn't understand what they were saying and had to wait 5 weeks to get another ultrasound done. when we walked in they were like "she is fine!" now i know its a big difference between toes and heart but we are really okay. we are just praying it heals and that he will be healthy. i feel like i am just gonna be told something is wrong with every pregnancy i have and that's okay. i am not gonna worry like we did with bennet. plus my midwife told me she sees this like 10 times a week and in most cases with downs there are other markers. this is just one thing. she told me nothing to worry about. so we go back in 5 weeks and we get to do another ultrasound. they want to keep checking the heart and placenta out. the nice thing about being told something like that is we get to see him on the ultrasound a lot more then normal pregnancies. we are already so in love with him. Lawson was pete's great grandpa and Lee was his grandpa. Pete's great grandma Lottie is still living (101!!) so it was such a special moment to be able to call and tell her we were using Lawson's name. she got choked up and so did we. it is a moment i will never forget. so there is the update. if you made it through all that. i am gonna do a pregnancy post every week (well i am gonna try at least) right now i am 19 weeks so i will probably start at 20. i need to make sure to write this down because if i don't i will feel horrible. i wrote down so much with bennet so i don't want lawson to feel left out.

~m

we bought a HOUSE

we are home owners!!! we are so excited to finally have a house that is truly ours! i can see our family growing bigger here for many years. it will be filled with love. it took us a long time to get here and we will cherish it so much!

so who wants to help us move?! ;)

some things i want to remember...

your little voice and how you jibber jabber all day.

how your little hands wrap around my neck and you give me a "sqeeze"

how you take care of all your little babies (stuffed animals) your favorites are your blue, teddy bear (that you named "goal"), and your little monkey. you love them so much.

how you sing along with us to your favorite lullaby "my darling" (it sounds like "my daddy" when you sing it)

how every time pull in the driveway you say "Wer Hooommme!" then immediately say "grarden!!!" you love going to look at the garden

mama needs a night out!

last night, me and my best girlfriends got out of the house for a much needed girl's night. i cannot tell how much i needed this. pete was on a crazy long tour since Jan. and it just ended this week. i quickly asked the girls what night we could all get together and i was so excited that everyone couldn't wait! the last time we all got to go out sans babies was when my friend katie told us she was pregnant. her baby is now 3 months old! needless to say, it was MUCH needed.

i love these ladies so much. i have been roommates with each of them at different times. i have the best memories with all of them. it was such a fun time in my life and i am so thankful i got to share it with them. i love that now we are all in this mommy stage and get together and talk about EVERYTHING! thanks for all the laughs ladies. i was dragging today but i would do it all again tomorrow!

{quote of the night "what tequila drinks do you recommend cus i just had a beergarita over at chuy's and i loved it!"} ~m

18 months!

how and when did this happen?! seriously life is flashing by with this little one.

(your 18 month bday!)

some highlights this past month:
you are talking so much! you pick up new words everyday and you understand pretty much everything i say to you. you are running and love to dance. you have become obsessed with Tangled and love the song parts in it. you have to get up and dance as soon as they start singing. it is pretty much the cutest thing ever! you are learning what timeouts are and we have picked out a timeout spot. you love pretend play and playing outside. luckily the weather has been great out so i try to get you out daily. blowing bubble, bath time, coloring, feeding yourself are all some of your fav things.
mimi came and stayed with you for 5 days while momma and dadda went on a cruise. it was really hard being away from you but daddy and i did have fun. we thought about you constantly. you loved being with mimi and you def got spoiled. when we got to talk to you on the phone you cried a bunch and that was really hard. you missed us and that was nice to know. we missed you so so much. i couldn't wait to get back to you!
we went to your doc appt yesterday and you are 21.5 pounds and 30 inches. you are growing very well! you are teething right now but so far i am pretty sure you have around 12 teeth.
this past weekend we went out on the road with daddy to his shows. lets just say bus life is not your fav. you loved being around everyone during the day and listening to some of the bands but you hated sleeping on the bus. mommy pretty much slept 6 hours all weekend and that was only bc i napped while you did. i got no sleep at night so we were all pretty exhausted when we got home.
you, my dear, continue to be one fun little girl. you have the best personality with a lot of sass and a lot of sweetness. you love to laugh and giggle and you def like having everyone's attention. i can't believe that soon you will be 2. i don't even know how that happened. i am so thankful you are here and that i am able to be your mommy. i love you lots little b!

(you are obsessed with wearing glasses)

(daddy did your hair ;))

(piggies!)

(on a walk)

(swinging at the park)

(another fav playing with glop a cornstarch and watch mixture)

traveling without baby

I mentioned before that next month we will be leaving bennet for the first time for a cruise. we are flying my mom down to stay with her for 5 days while i am so very far away on a boat in the sea. i am mostly excited but also very nervous. i would be a lot better if we were going away somewhere close so it's a little daunting to know i am gonna be so far away. but my mom is the best and i am so thankful she will be here for bennet. living in another state has made it hard for them to see each other and spend time so i am excited for them. i know mimi is so excited!

i also mentioned before that i have been doing 30 day shred. although i haven't been able to do it EVERY day. i figure though that i am working out most days and that is better then none at all. but the extra pounds are hanging on for dear life. i don't think i will be too excited to squeeze into my one piece. i did get a big floppy hat so i am excited about that. now i just need to find a cute cover up haha. before we go i am able to do a little shopping (i am babysitting for my old nanny family at the end of this month. the little girls LOVE bennet so we are looking forward to it and the $$ i am getting for doing it) i have been doing some online browsing but will most likely just go to forever 21 and francesca's do you have a francesca's in your town? i absolutely love this store! the prices are not too bad either! so all that to say here are some of the items from these stores that are currently waiting in my bag:

this dress would be perfect for a nice dinner aboard ship or when we dock in the Bahamas.

i am obsessed with this bag. i don't have any small purses so i have to buy one before we go.

another bag i love!

my goal, since being a mommy doesn't allow for it most days, is to dress up and wear heals like the whole time! these are a must

this ring set is so fun and cute!

i need to start wearing earrings.

i have a ton of stuff i want from forever 21 too. i am excited at the thought of dressing up a lot!

even though i am really nervous to leave my baby, i think this trip will be good for everyone. i am really excited to reconnect with pete and for my mom and bennet to spend lots of time together.

now time to go shopping!