one fancy girl

umm...shopping for bennet has been so fun! there are so so many cute little outfits out there. i definitely can not wait to dress her up.
here are some of my favorite finds so far:

















all of these outfits were either found at thrift stores, etsy, or they were on sale!


oh and here is the fabric i just bought for her curtains:



closer look:



pete will be home a few days this week so we will be able to get more of her room done. he is almost done with painting the dresser! i am so excited to see her room look more like a nursery!

xoxo,
m

24 weeks

How Far Along?
24 weeks
How Big is Baby?
over a pound!
Weight Gained So Far?
11 pounds
Maternity Clothes?
oh yes. this is a silly question to keep asking
Stretch Marks?
nope...PTL :)
Sleep?
can't complain too much here. i get up to pee like 1000 times but other then that it has been easy to sleep.
Best Moment of the Week?
pete and i pray over bennet every night. this has become my favorite time of day.
Food Cravings?
hot dogs...pete went out and got nitrate free hot dogs from trader joes. yummy.
Looking Forward To?
seeing bennet on the ultrasound next week. even though the circumstances aren't great, we are just thinking about how great it will be to see her moving around in there again.


dearest baby girl,

you are moving around so so much! i love it :) daddy is really missing us and i hope this week goes by fast. this pregnancy thing has been such a wonderful experience so far. it is so crazy to think that i have my little baby girl growing in my belly. God is so good and we know He is taking care of you. He knows all the little wrinkles you have and has made you for big things. We pray something new over you every night and last night is was "a passion for God" this is so important and we hope we teach you well about how much God loves you and all He desires for you.
we love you bunches baby girl!

xoxo,
mommy

Nesting

oh my there are so many cute ideas for baby rooms. i am constantly looking at ohdeedoh for ideas. one thing i know for sure is i don't want a "theme room" i want white furniture with bright colorful curtains, changing pad (look here for an amazing idea), and pillows. i am going to make my own bed skirt with white fabric and i registered for some colorful crib sheets. i am not really into pink so i am going to go more yellows. i am going to attempt this for all the vintage books i have just waiting for her to open.
ever since i opened my march anthropologie catalog i knew i had to steal this idea:



so last night i worked on it:



it will be in place of a mobile. i can't wait to see it all together! this nesting thing has hit me hard! even though i am little over half way done with this pregnancy i just want to get it all done! hubs is out of town a ton till she makes her arrival so i have a reason to feel a little anxious. i feel like i can't do anything without him here :(

speaking of the vintage books i have here are a few of my favorites:





dearest baby girl,

Bennet Elise i can't wait to walk by your room and see you in it! these last few months have flown by so i know it won't be long before you are here. daddy and i can't wait to spend time with you and read to you. i hope you love your room and find it relaxing.

xoxo,
mommy

hope for our little one

i have been debating the last week or so if i would write about what i am about to say...the conclusion i have come to is...yes i will. first let me say that i love hearing people's pregnancy/labor stories. they give me hope, joy, excitement, knowledge, and comfort. so knowing that, i realized i need to share the positives and negatives about my pregnancy. it might help someone if they are in the same situation as we are right now. it might help me.

so 2 days after finding out our little one was a girl, i went in for my midwife appointment. i had literally just said goodbye to pete once again for about a week. the band is touring so much right now and only seeing him like 3 days a month is wearing me out. anyways, goodbye pete, hello baby heartbeat. as i am laying down my midwife tells me,

"so we noticed something on the ultrasound."

okay. not sounding good. MY heartbeat starts going about as fast as my little nugs.

"there is a red flag for down syndrome. we are worried about the spacing of her toes."

me with a shaky voice, "okay..."

"so what we can offer you is another ultrasound. this one will be a better pic and more accurate one. we will be able to get a better measurements on her and look at her toes more clearly."

"okay...yes."

she goes to schedule the appt. comes in a little bit later and informs me they can't see me till april 21st. cool. a month to wait. awesome. (sarcastic!) this whole time i am holding in my tears. where is pete? i need him with me...

i leave totally shaken up. get in my car, dial pete, start bawling and try to get out what they just told me. he is obviously so sad but is trying to comfort me.

so you get it....the hardest day.

after talking with pete i called my sister. she was able to comfort me bc she was told from about 6 weeks in her 1st pregnancy much worse. he came out perfect. she assured me that they have to be overly cautious with everything. told me not worry (easier said then done)


i have my good days and i have my bad days. through this all, i have felt so much comfort. comfort from all my friends and family, comfort from prayer. i am so thankful for my God. i am so thankful for prayer. we have so many people praying for us and little bennet. I know God sees all, knows all, is all. He has picked us out to be bennet's mommy and daddy. He chose us. He chose her. I know she is going to be alright. she will be a healthy, perfect little lady no matter what. we love her so much already. i can not wait to meet and kiss her. especially her little toes.


dear bennet,

we love you so much. we are praying for you and your health. so many people are. we are so excited to get to see you again on april 21st. keep kicking around in there :)

so much love,
mommy

girly girl

man oh man, i can not even begin to explain how it feels to know our little one is a girl! yesterday was definitely one i will always remember when i think back on this pregnancy. here is a run down on how it all went.

we woke up around 8. we were both so excited and immediately began wondering what the baby would be. went for our appointment at 9:30. they called us in right away {yea! no waiting} the lady was so nice. we told her we definitely wanted to know what baby was. about 1 min in she let the big news out, "This ones a girl!" Shock. and more shock. i had been thinking all this time that it was a boy. i mean i really thought i was sure. so sure.
we both looked at each other in amazement. and then just laughed and smiled the rest of the 20 min ultrasound. even though i was totally wrong, i was so excited! a little baby girl! now i can decorate the room how i wanted to. now i can shop for all the pretty ruffle girl clothes. YES! now i can use the name i have loved for the past few years (and pete loves too)

we headed straight toward the mall to make a stop at baby gap. we picked out her first little outfits (both were on sale) i can't wait to dress her up!

dear little Bennet Elise,

your momma and daddy are so thrilled to finally know you are a sweet girl! we can't wait to snuggle and love on you. i am so excited for you to meet your daddy. he is gonna be the best :) you will def be daddy's little girl. he talks to you all the time and you respond to his voice by kicking around. you two already have a strong bond. we are praying for you. you will be loved so much.

love,
mommy

it's a...

GIRL!!!
:)



{bigger post coming tomorrow}

20 weeks and 3 days belly pic