i know i have talked about pete traveling and how hard it is to be without him. i don't mean to sound like a broken record here but...it is hard. real hard. usually 3 days is my limit. after that i just get cranky and super sad. i don't feel like doing anything (which isn't a good thing when you are due in 10 weeks...gotta get things done!!!)
but lately, one day is too much. this is probably due to being in my 3rd trimester and being a wimpy, crying bag of a baby...(and my husband is something amazing and waking up with him next to me is the best thing)
i wonder when bennet gets here if it will be different. will i be too tired to get sad and weepy? (PROBABLY!) will she fill my days with happiness? (YES!!) i do know one thing...i will no longer be the only girl in this house who misses him. he is gonna be such a great daddy to her, i just cant wait to see them cuddle :)
so right now i sit here jealous of all the people who get to see my husband. angry that i have another week to get through. thankful that he has a job he loves. feeling sorry for myself that i don't get a back rub tonight. and lonely eating dinner all by myself.
dear bennet,
baby girl...we only have 10 weeks left till we get to meet each other. i am looking forward to finally seeing what you look like. will you have lots of dark hair like daddy? will you have my huge lips? no matter what...you are our little girl and even if you come out crying non stop we couldn't be happier {although please be a calm baby who likes her sleep like her parents :)}
we will have a lot of time together when daddy is gone. i know he is already dreading leaving us for the first time. we will fill our days with giggles, snuggles, and lots of fun to make the time go by faster. and when he comes home i am sure i won't get to hold you at all. he will more then likely not put you down the whole time ;)
we love you nugs,
mommy
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Melissa, I know exactly how you feel! Honestly, my limit is more like 3 weeks though. Maybe I've just been living like this a little longer so I'm more used to it. And I always remind myself that I'm blessed because at least Ben's not in the military or something. As for how you'll feel after the baby...well, that just depends! I suggest having Pete stay home as long as possible after she's born. Ben took a month off from tour and it helped so much. Your hormones will be going crazy right after the baby is born. So you need him there for support and to take care of you as you take care of the baby. On the up side now when Ben leaves I am so, so, busy that it goes by a lot faster. And even though there were nights when Julian wouldn't sleep or was sick and I felt like a single parent...I count myself so blessed to have the amazing husband I do have. And when he's home, he's really home! He's with us all day long for days at a time. And not many families get to do that. Even the ones with the 9-5 jobs. If you ever need to talk, vent, cry, or need baby advice don't hesitate to get in touch with me. You're gonna be such a great mom.
Holly
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