not me. my baby. my baby is sick and it is so sad. my baby is sick with RSV, bronchitis, and ear infections. big, major BOO! i feel so so bad for her. thankfully everything is very mild and we caught it right when it started.
but before i get too far in, let me tell you about THE hardest days of being a momma so far...
a week ago we flew to st louis to spend time with my family. pete was on a cruise in the bahamas...ummm how is that work??! anyways, so instead of sitting around the house feeling sorry for myself that i wasn't enjoying the ocean and beach, we went to see the next best thing...cousins!! & aunties!! & Mimi!!
{playing with aidan}
the flight out there was easy. while getting through security is SOOO much harder w/ a babe and being by yourself, bennet was a doll. she traveled so well. the lady next to me even commented on how she had to be the best traveling baby ever.
we spent the next few days hanging out with cousins and having lots of fun. it was a great trip. then the runny nose started. then the cough. bennet wasn't sleeping as great as she always does (this girl <3's her comfy bed) so add to that a cough and cold...and we were not getting very much sleep. i also was nervous as this was her first cold and her cough just sounded so sad. thankfully i was staying with my sister who has gone through a lot of sicknesses with 2 kids. she helped me a lot and kept me calm. bennet was still acting herself...lots of smiles.
on saturday we had to fly back to see daddy for 2 hours when he had to leave again to fly out to LA for Grammys (woop woop) but we were all so sad we didn't have more time to see each other. i was nervous about flying with b with her having a cold. as we get to the security line...which was long and i was carrying her in the bjorn (which kills my back after awhile). let me just say how awful people are in st louis. no one offered to help me with anything. when i flew out of nashville, everyone was offering help. seriously and they were rude on top of that. whatever. so i get through it finally and get everything put back together. grab some water and walk to the gate. realize somewhere she kicked off a sock. which equals me feeling horrible. thankfully its not as cold as it had been and she didn't seem to mind. as we are sitting at the gate, bennet starts loosing it. and i mean LOOSING it. she has never cried like this before for me. even as an infant. nothing would calm her. 20 mins later, and tons of stare downs by mean people who just glared at me...she falls asleep. so obviously this means she is out of the bjorn and i am cradle holding her. they announce that our flight is boarding. i just had a (freaking heavy) diaper bag and coat and bjorn and sleeping baby to hold and try not to wake up. shouldn't be hard, right? shut up. it was the worse and mind you NOT one person offered to help. keep in mind this whole time i am fighting back tears. i get on the plane after a dbag and his gf cut me off in line...i literally had to jerk to a stop. RUDE. she stays sleeping till i realize i can't get my seat belt buckled. so she wakes up and is up the whole ride. thankfully it is a short flight 45 min. we land. pete picks us up. other things happen that stress me out and i start bawling. i think i cried the whole time we had together.
so yea that was the worst day as a mommy to date. unless you just add in this whole week so far. giving your baby breathing treatments doesn't make you want to celebrate love and hearts. pete and i were so worried (he is still gone and wont be home till sunday) that every time we talked, it was about b. we didn't say happy v day to each other till about 3pm.
a bit of good news is that we are getting a awesome, nice camera for v day! yes! you have NO idea how much i had been wanting one. finally better pics of bennet!
so yea...i am lonely, sad for my baby, tired, exhausted. taking care of a sick baby all by yourself is hard. like really hard.
{how we talk now a days}
ps...the band didn't win the grammy but they had a blast.
{i picked out pete's plaid tie}
and that's an update. a long one. sorry.
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